Weight Loss- Thy Name is FRUSTRATION!

I have hit a point where I am so frustrated that I can not even think straight.  I feel like no matter what I do, I am making absolutely NO PROGRESS doing this diet.  So let me quickly recap what has gone on since my last post.  I worked out both Thursday and Friday so I felt like I was doing good.  Saturday, my frustration level is beginning to grow and by Sunday I had hit my breaking point.  Carley and I went to Mom and Dad's during breakfast.  My mother, who I love dearly, pushed me over the edge.  Want to know how?  She made donuts.  Yes, donuts that I could not have.  Needless to say, I cried.  And cried.  And cried.  Now not necessarily because I was mad at mom or that I couldn't have the donut (Ok-maybe it was that a little) but more because I was so hungry and felt like there was nothing on the planet that I could eat.  

Today, my frustration continues.  I know that I am not supposed to be on the scale or measuring daily, but at this point it has become an obsession.  I feel like I have to see the weight change or the measuring tape get to cinch in a little.  Today, I got on the scale and it showed A GAIN!  Two whole pounds.  Now most people are telling me not to stress.  This could be what everyone says is "water weight".  Well to me, water weight is weight and I don't want it.

So after finding out that I have gained weight, I decided that I was going to go home and walk until my legs fell off.  I get home, I put on sweats and a thermal shirt under a tshirt and I start walking.  I made it about a quarter of a mile before I could not handle the cold wind any more.  I turned around and went and to use the treadmill.  Well that only lasted a couple of minutes because my brother has it set on too high of an incline for my athletic ability.  We have an old school treadmill.  You can't just push a button to lower the incline.  Needless to say, my frustration is CrAzY high!  But I am going to just quit listening to everybody and just start eating sensibly.  I can't take this restrictive diet crap any longer.

Thanks for listening to me piss and moan today!